Just Show Up – Move Me
Lord move in a way, that I’ve never seen before
Cause there’s a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I’m drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me
~ chorus from FFH’s “Lord move, or move me”
If there is one thing I’ve learned in the eleven years of walking hand in hand with Christ is that He has given me the ability to recognize when I need to ‘act’. When I began to recognize this season of spiritual drought I took it to my spiritual director who recommended a silent retreat. “Ahh, yes,” I thought. For years I’ve been desiring a silent retreat but never had the ‘time’ to go because I was already leading retreats or even attending a few and couldn’t take the extra time off to splurge on yet another retreat.
But now I do. And I knew I needed to act. ‘Lord move or move me.’ I think both were taking place. Tomorrow morning I leave for The Cenacle in Houston. This is a retreat center led by the Cenacle Sisters. “Come away by yourself to a quiet place and rest a while.” Mark 6:31 it reads on their website.
If you have been following me on this blog you realize that our journey is ever changing and one full of consistent growth. I seek to continuously improve myself and go deeper into my relationship with God. At this point in my life as He has led me to this new endeavor with Hopeful Hearts and writing the new book on marriage and the book on hope I am aware of the need for me to push past some fears that keep me on the surface. It is as if I am an experienced deep sea diver that is too afraid to use the skills I’ve perfected to venture into the deepest part of the sea. Instead I have been remaining among the coral with all the required equipment to go to the depths but haven’t been able to make the first move.
Comfort is a conundrum. We desire to be comforted but sometimes we must move from what is comfortable in order to blossom and grow. Knowing this I anticipate leaving in the morning for the three day retreat. I am anxious, scared and excited to gear up with the ten years of knowledge and growth God has impressed upon me and take that push off into the depths of what is unknown.
I hope to come back with revelation to share.
I can’t sign off without thanking Fr. Gavin, Donna, Bill, and other friends that have supported the ‘Hope for the Hopeless’ book campaign. ALL of your support and prayers mean the world to me. There are 17 days left in the campaign and I know that no matter what is accomplished God will bring me through it if I am meant to ‘move’.